When I began my journey into homeschooling, I felt inadequate in several ways. Taking on the task to teach your children and be available from morning until night can be a challenge, and it will bring forth doubts and fears. When we began our journey in 2009, I was so excited to finally be able to focus on my daughters completely. Before then I was pursuing my degree in education only to realize that I didn't want to be the teacher I learned about during my pursuit.
Although I was excited about my new found passion, I still found myself struggling with doubt. I questioned my intentions more than my abilities. This slowly began to affect me and subsequently our home school. In 2012, I got a nudge to give classroom teaching a try. You can read that story here. This decision had many layers, but for the purpose of this post I will focus on the home school doubt. I needed to go teach because it was the only way I could get out of my head and truly see His purpose (not my own) in our decision to learn at home.
What I learned through my experience are the tips I am sharing with you today.
- Be honest about your doubt. Don't pretend to be perfect or try to hide it, but instead confess it. You can share this in many ways such as writing your doubts in a journal, talking to a trusted friend, or reaching out to a home school blogger ( I did).
- Search for the root of your doubt. Doubt and fear always have a root cause. My doubt was two-fold, I thought I decided to home school because I was afraid to be a teacher in a school, and I wondered if I was home schooling right since I didn't have any accountability partners.
- Flesh out the lies. Teaching in the school system helped me to see something that I knew, but had a hard time accepting ... I really didn't want to teach large groups of children at the same time nor did I want to follow the rules placed upon teachers. Secondly, although I didn't have human accountability partners, the Most High has always been my partner since we embarked on this journey. I parent our children from the mindset that they are His first so with that I trust Him to guide me and protect them.
- Move forward in truth. Once I experienced teaching out of the home, I no longer was under the lie of not being good enough to teach in a school system, but instead I do not have the desire which keeps that particular lie from being used against me. As it relates to home schooling, I know the truth which is I won't be able to teach and give them everything before they graduate, and I accept that. Learning is a continuum. It happens as long as our minds are open, and Lord willing they will learn just as much as I have and more in their adult lives.
Doubt shouldn't hold your home school hostage. You have been given an awesome opportunity to teach your children. Start fresh today and make the most out of the time you have with your children.
How do you work through doubt?
Join me and the rest of the Crew as we share tips for home school parents!