Whatever is right

For several days maybe weeks, I have been bogged down in my thinking about mother-child relationships.  It is an area that is a deep struggle as it pertains with the relationship I have with my mother.

When I truly focus on God's word, I am at peace with the choices I have had to make, but there are days that it really hurts to not have a strong bond with the woman who birthed me. I struggle through the verses that remind us to honor our parents.  I do honor, but my flesh wants more than that.  I want a deeper relationship. I desire to trust her, and for us to be able to talk about some of things that interest me.  So my flesh and spirit fight about the course of action for this particular relationship. My human desire longs while my spirit cries out "it is well, Latonya".

 His word tells me to focus on what is right. Not what I think is right or my feelings, but truly what He says is right. Since I don't desire to be obedient only when it is fitting, the hard days come.  I know that He is bigger than any of my hard days. I have learned to find comfort in Him and He has offered me His words in Jeremiah 1:5 and Psalm 27:10. I know that He brought me forth for a purpose and that He will always be with me.

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

Jeremiah 1:5

"Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me".

Psalm 27:10

I will continue to navigate this path with Christ.  I will continue to cling to His word and remember to not grow weary.  For I am constantly reminded of Paul's words, "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us" Romans 8:18.

I often felt alone as relates to the relationship that I have with my mother, but I know others suffer too. For those that find it difficult to love or salvage any sort of relationship with a parent due to pain or unresolved issues, remember that God called you to earth for a reason, and although the relationship may never be what you desire He never fails.  And if He blessed you to parent children, you have the gift of creating a new path for the future generations,

This post is linked to The Sunday Community at Lisha Epperson's space.

Blessings,